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Quick last few words before I enter back into the sharp metal clink of hospital regime. Sitting at home, looking out of the window onto wet summer grass and soaking trees. Lilly by my feet wailing for food. Luigi down in the kitchen preparing supper. Olympics racing along on the tv. A bag still to pack. But hard to do it. Even Venezia seems an age ago now. I know to a certain extent what awaits me tomorrow - as consultant said the other day, "well your an old hand at this now". It also feels total madness and incomprehensible that my world is about to be put on hold and my body fed full of poison. For months. Puff. I am passing up many prayers to all the gods from everywhere that my body also gets fed full of new shiny cells and a working immune system later on down the line. But this trip is one day at a time. Otherwise it just goes into overdrive. Tomorrow starts at 9.30am. Lu and Julian driving us in. Somehow we have to navigate olympic traffic and get right into the heart of London Bridge. I have every confidence in my driver! Pic-line slipped up into my arm at 11am. Bone Marrow apple cored out of my hip in the afternoon and then the first of 5 injections shot into my stomach in the evening. Wow - full on bells and whistles... Back to tonight. I feel that sunday-night-back-to-boarding-school feeling x 100. Who remembers that misery? Going to fold myself into the arms of my camping man. Lilly can sit on my lap too. Sod low neutrophil count. Back soon - on the other side. tch
15 comments:
Good luck Tessa,we are both thinking of you
cyril
Haircut looking good, hope you can enjoy it at least for a few days. Good luck and speak soon.
Lenks
I'm praying to those Gods too. :- Shiny Cells, and Courage and Patience and Endurance. You have already won a Podium Position (in Olympiad speak) as far as I'm concerned. x x xx x Sarah C
Will be thinking of you tomorrow, knowing the Monday drudge and traffic is nothing compared to your day ahead. Stay strong and see you very soon xxx p.s. nice haircut!
Hi my name is Stephanie and Tessa Winger is a friend of mine. I saw your comment on her blog and wanted to tell you that my good and best thoughts and prayers for you! I hope you do not mind- your story just tugged on my heart and we are close in age and I would like to read your blog and send lots of hugs across the pond!
Yes dear Z458779 the hair looks good. Was thinking it would suit me. Almost like a female version of David Bowie. Being a bloke I've either said the most amazingly perceptive, thoughtful and complimentary thing or everyone is screaming 'shut up you idiot!'. My schedule for the the Friday Olympics was 1) see doctor about ear (got some great drugs!); go for a run; head on down to Whitstable Harbour for my current favorite tipple – Kentish lager; then back for fish and chips with the opening ceremony whence I promptly flagged and retired to bed. So it's come on Team TH (with the special rare tissue – you just had to have rare!) we'll be cheering you on today. I guess you must be up to the hip part in your rather gruesome pentathlon (note clever extension of Olympic theme). We'll be raising a glass to Dame Tessa Holmes (just did it again!) of East Dulwich in no time.
All the best
Tony
Hey Tessa
Just wanted to let you know that I'm very much thinking of you. The haircut is the business-looks fab.
xxx Naomi G
Dear Tessa,
So sorry to hear you're going through it all again. Thinking of you very much - so impressed by your stoicism and sense of humour remaining in tact - look forward to (rude) scrabble as soon as you're up to it.
with all my love
Cassy
Hi Tessa so sorry to hear that the news is 'challenging' what a bugger.We are all sending up positive thoughts/prayers for you. I cannot begin to know how you feel, but am looking forward to seeing you all fit and healthy again, keep being fiesty!
Lots of love and hugs P
Hi Tessa
Been thinking about you, hope you're ok after your first day of treatment, off to Luisa's shortly any chance we can facetime if you're feeling up to it?
Love Jan x
Tessa
I am hoping that today you are back home and recovering from yesterdays pokes and prods. Thinking of you and give me a shout if you need anything.
Love Jackx
Michael and Selina, (old shipmates of Richard and admirers of your work at Southwark Cathedral), send thoughts and best wishes for this tough round of treatment. Admire your writing and spirit, and with others we are rooting for a handy bit of remission and a decent match to follow.
Keep strong Tessa - I am thinking of you.Now have another reason to wish I was under 50. Lots of love Lisa xx
Looking good coz xx
Looking good coz xx
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